Imnotinlikewithyou
I know something is definately wrong and something is missing…nothing feels the same anymore, it’s like him and I drifted away or maybe it’s just me? There is no more of the genuine love and happiness that there once was. Now I just feel so awkward and uncomfortable. I don’t feel like I’m with him anymore. We talk on the dumb phone and say hi to each other at school once in awhile but there’s never the occasional going out to lunch nor the walking me to class. I miss it when he hugs me from the back,I miss him suprising me with unexpected things and I miss him making me smile with sweet words. I’m not meaning to sound like a brat but it’s small genuine things I just miss about him. Now I can’t tell him things I use to tell him. When something wrong I just bundle it inside of me because I feel so uncomfortable. And everytime somethings up I act like nothings up so he doesn’t have to question me a billion times. When I ask him “it doesn’t feel the same anymore.” His automatic response is “fine you wanna end it then?” No I’m asking to fix the issue. He’s so blind and clueless to know anything. Goodness he frustrates me. I knew getting back with him was stretching it “fine ur just gonna give up?” “we can make it work out.” Damn I got sucked into those hopeless words …I know I changed too. But idk I’m just so flustered. And everytime I’m with him something always goes wrong. Like last week when we went to go watch a movie and it went bad. I stormed off while eating subway because I got pissed, okay yes it was my fault for acting like the bitch and I couldnt take the dumb joke but idk sometimes he takes it too far. Kajcidnsj I just don’t feel as comfortable as I use to be…and then he starts texting other girls in front of my face when he clearly hates it when I do the samething in front of him…ugh what a hypocrite! and when we were going around the mall he would just walk in front of me and i had to trail behind his sorry ass like a fucken dog. ;alksdj;flkasdjf Sigh I miss the old days so much :/ and to think most of this ended up being my fault is ridiculous.im slowly regretting it right now. Idk I needed to ramble about this for awhile and tumblr was my only hope :/
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2 years ago